the shins are a good thing…

im going to just listen to the shins now

hangover blues

went to peters party

was fun

some unexpected be predictable things happened

still kind of fun

woke up

went out to breakfast

drove home moping and listening to jens lekman

got home and stared at my ceiling while listening to the mountain goats

fell asleep to that

woke up to parents yelling at each other about who said "let them eat cake"

it was marie antoinette you fucks get over it we get it you both know the answer

get a divorce and stop opening my door so i can sleep

im just going to drink (water) in my room to blonde redhead while i hate everyone

bad luck it could happen twice

you better check your past make sure you've been nice

if you ask me for advice

i would say stop and think before you roll the dice

bring that rabbit's foot along with you

double up a four leaf clover and a lucky horseshoe

better avoid the black cat and them ladders too

and don't you step on on crack 'cause you know what it do

my head is spinning it feels alright

i've got clean shirt and my shoes are nice

peachtree and 5th is jump off tonight

the magic city titties is looking alright

analyze me

the season has changed

it will soon begin to feel like christmas

my car has something wrong with it

it is really loud

i kind of like it

I was walking into Gelson's to meet Daniel and Matt for lunch today

I wasn't really thinking about anything in particular

I was walking in and made eye contact with the man outside the door collecting for charity

a large black man in a heavy parka

it was the quickest glance

he stopped me

he told me everything was going to be ok

he told me to smile

I didn't understand at first because I had no idea I was frowning

but he assured me everything would be alright

I was kind of confused "oh.. thanks... uhh..." my usual response

I'm not sad

I don't think I am

I guess I look sad

whatever I thought it was interesting

well a guy in a skeleton costume comes up to the guy in a superman suit

runs through him with a broadsword

these are a bunch of Hayden's pictures

sorry Hayden I'm using them

smiling

buddies sitting on a volvo

more sitting on a volvo

volvo kids

monday night blues

i cant wait to live by myself

i could be in peace and relax in my room

without someone coming in to remind me to go to sleep

then deliberately leave my door open

i can bring girls home without being cock blocked

have friends over

walk around naked

not have to talk to anyone

IM A SHARK!

IM A SHAAAAARRRKK!

SUCK MY DIIIICCKKKKK!

IM A SHARK!

i like wearing sunglasses

when i wear them and talk to girl i just stare at their chest

YES

yeah it turns out my canteen was just at matt sowers's house

good day

worst day

worst day ever

i have lost my beloved canteen

i am currently drink out of a GLASS

fuck me

Seasick Steve - A Take Away Show - Part 2 from La Blogotheque on Vimeo.

weekend coming

friday

hayden fongheiser performing live standup

saturday

shenanigans then islands at the troubadour

sunday

who knows probably the usual shenanigans

i spent friday and saturday in a daze of marijuana, painkillers, energy drinks, and wine.

i cant recall much from those days

and i remember passing out at some point in a cold sweat.

it has noticeably affected my physical fitness.

i was much worse at sunday hockey this week than i was the last.

however

it was fun as fuck and i didn't really worry about anything

my bros+chemicals=awesome

fbsh

kic

remember when we had just met

i was going to take your picture for my photo class

but you changed your mind at the last minute

and said you didnt have time

because you were about to meet up with your friends and watch some kid play in his band in some yogurt place or something

i i left thinking you didnt like me

but you assured me you did

so we went to one of your friends houses so i could take her picture

it was raining

i had just gotten my car

i had just started driving

i was an awful driver

we listened to billy talent

it reminded us of the people we used to be

we got lost

so your friend stole or borrowed her moms car and guided us to her house

i took her picture

you showed me off

you pinned me down and kissed me in front of her

we left and i dropped you off eventually

rainy weather will always remind me of how you used to be

you used to be fun

youre different now though

whatever i guess i am too

goodnight

I dreamed about you days ago

you were a complete mess

died black hair

with the blonde pieces all over

your hair looked good

but your eyes were sad

hopeless

pale face

blank expression

smoking a cigarette

i dreamt you were a fuck up

you fucked every guy you knew

and tried any drug someone offered you

but i still wasn't good enough for you

i woke completely depressed

i know that wouldn't happen

the extreme of the worst

why do i care about you in my dreams

fuck you

i'm doing things differently now

no more of this shit

i'm going to be… alright

fuck…

i made my bed with new sheets

they are all crispy and soft and white

i feel like i'm on a cloud

it's pretty nice

i don't really care about anything very much

getting by

not giving up

if you are super happy or super sad you appreciate everything more

music art food air

everything is better

you don't have to be one or the other

in between completely happy and completely sad

but not that bored halfway fuck stage

it doesn't exist really it's strictly theoretical

however the fact that it does not exist does not mean that you can't be there

i got my car back... again

good car

no major malfunctions

lovely lovely car

i've been burning some bridges lately

some good ones too

whatever

no use trying to wade across the river

eh fuck metaphors

i fucked up i guess

"we are guys and guys don't have feelings"

"well bender isn't a guy, he's a robot"

goodnight

meeeeeeehhhhehehehe...

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckufckuck

start over...... done

regret it......... dont

take a step back

take a look around

realize what the fuck just happened

take a deep breathe and think about it

i could either be under thinking or over thinking

it doesn't make sense to me

hey umm...

well never mind goodnight

Dammitdammitdammitdammitdammitdammit

ok better now

not really

i want my car back too

i want a lot of things back

ugh why!

i lost track of the last time i smoked

2? 3 weeks?

i think its a good thing

hey look... its a... umm.....

uhh...

went to bed

went to bed but went back on line but i already said my goodnights so i cant go back to talking

can't believe how strange it is to be anything

at all

^not significant

i wont wait for you but i am here right now

i wont be here for long

you can have me right now and i will eventually love you unconditionally maybe

or you can just not

thats ok

way into they mountain goats i think

i will be in a few days for sure

i think its weird how little we all know

and how little we all care

and how much we care

you know that saying...

you cant take it with you so its not important

thats really true you cant take possessions with you

or people

are you even going anywhere

we cares if you are

everyone does

why should they

they shouldnt

i dont

fuck it

im going along for the ride

Let's

fuck

samurai jack is my best friend

but that isnt saying much because my friends suck

ok why do bands insist on having terrible all girl bands open for them?

arctic monkeys tonight

new album sucks a bit

but they are still awesome

adventuuuuuureee

didn't go to venice

but brendan benson was really good

also the one of the opening bands, rocket, well... the reason they were there was clear

they weren't very good but the singer was fucking hot as hell

erm yeah i mean a very talented all girl punk band

A Whole Lot Better

venice beach, buy some equipment

troubadour, see brendan benson

Yikes

this song makes me almost cry still

almost

fuck song shuffle

The Ice Is Getting Thinner (demo) - Death Cab For Cutie

elaboration of insignificance

There isn't much going on in my life, but it lacks simplicity.

I have people around me, but I'm bored and feel alone.

The need for human interaction and affection is the basis for society and it is what separates us from animals. But how come dogs need human interaction and affection just as much as we do. I need animal interaction as well. She's so damn cute.

I'm trying to look for something but I'm not even sure its there or what it is.

If its anything like fishing then it isn't there or if it is i won't get a chance without taking a risk and wade out in the water.

But most importantly, does this matter? Will I remember anything because chances are i don't see anyone I know again or talk to them either after high school. This photo represents what a memory would look like in physical form. Obscure and overlapping.

This picture i did not make but to me it depicts life on a two dimensional representation.

You are born at the base of the tree and there are tiny lines that make up the tree. The thicker brighter lines are bigger actions and the small light lines are almost insignificant actions. Every action has a reaction and every line leads you to a different path. Usually when you make a wrong turn you can make your way back to where you want to go next. I can't get to where I want to go if I don't know where it is. And I don't know what it is that I want but i will find my way.

There thats it.

well...

it's about time i guess

good life

soonmaybewewillsee

ears are ringing

mind is fucked

micah caught jack white's drum stick when he threw it into the crowd

john c. reilly was there

good night

You can't really know me

When one foot's in and one foot's out the door

Dream Girl

I have met the girl of my dreams. Unfortunately I mean this quite literally. I had this dream where i had an entirely new group of friends. Among those was this girl.

She was about five feet tall, had super straight black hair with bangs, she drove an '85 beat up white volvo station wagon, wore an army jacket that was two sizes too big over a sweatshirt, and smoked clove cigarettes.

Need i say more? Perfection.

what are the fireflies saying that's so great?

yeah we don't have them have them here...

but come on they couldn't be worth it..

could they?

fuck your shit!

i'm a crab!

it feels colder

I'm beginning to hate myself again and doubt all of my mental achievements.

(granted that's half the time)

I'm too fucking nice.

(half the time)

no more talking. just to see who the first person to notice is.

I'm done with wasting time with people who probably don't even want me around.

this is what i want

a girl who is an enthusiast of these things:

whats so damn hard about that huh!