i just seem to always want what i cant have
i don't want things just because i cant have them
its just that when i want it and i could easily have it if it were not for the slightest little detail
then it just stays on my mind
i don't think im selfish
i just don't think that its a coincidence

i got into a car accident today
no one was hurt
except for madeleine
but its only the signal light
i'll get her a new one this week
i guess im not invincible
i can lose control and crash
im pretty lucky i guess

i have too much time on my hands
i never get anything done
if i had less time then i would get more done

im going to treat madeleine better form now on
its not fair of me to just be careless enough to let her get scarred

you will get better soon i promise



oh who am i kidding
its not that bad... right?
poor thing