It's Not Fair

its not fair for this to be happening to me
i want to stay happy and confident and nice and normal all the time
when i turn to the other side of myself i cant be happy
now katy doesnt like me because i have this... disability?... fucking curse and she never will get it
i need some of those happy pills that my grandma takes
i can be helped
i can be treated
before it gets worse
this isnt going to win
i promise myself